
I had a dream of The Lord telling me to come to Him.
I woke up the next day confused. The dream felt like no other, it was so impactful. I couldn’t let the feeling of it go. I couldn’t stop thinking of it.
I decided to tell those who at the time were close to me, I didn’t receive much support, instead followed laughs and jokes.
In that very moment I had a mustard seed amount of faith. Not much, but that’s all it takes.
I quickly reverted back to old ways. I ignored the call. I spent a good year confused, reckless, lost, lonely, uncomfortable, depressed, drunk.
I felt as I had no real purpose.
Doors closed. But one gigantic one opened.
I landed in a place where the people were so effortlessly kind. We laughed. We joked. We shared our lives.
One was a pastor.
He would tell me about The Lord. I would tell him I didn’t believe. Soon, he was telling me about The Lord and I was listening.
One is a guy who has the best humor.
A day with him is never dull. I looked forward to those days.
One was a guy who cycled through every different religion.
He had many stories to tell of his endeavors. Interesting stories.
One would become a temporary safe place.
Because of these bonds, I found self worth. I realized there was so much more for me. I ended bonds that weren’t right for me.
I cried. I laughed. I lost. I won. I was at the end of the chapter. I was at the start of a whole new book. The best book.
I took a chance.
He asked if he could take me to church.
I took a chance.
I felt weird. I felt somehow a sign read “doesn’t believe” across my forehead.
I saw joy. I heard praise. I wasn’t there yet.
I took another chance.
I saw joy. I heard praise. I was ready
I believe.
(3.5 years now of accepting and receiving Gods gloryπ)